Why don't you think you're worth it?

Have you ever challenged those feelings that challenge you?

The 'supposed' lack of confidence, imposter syndrome, rejection and more.

If the answer is no, then your challenge now is to say yes I will challenge these thoughts.
As you get older you get to an understanding that being in denial, ignoring and pushing aside things that eat you up inside is to your detriment. Lets be responsible enough to address matters of our concern and further take action to dismiss or entertain.

Why am I here?

Can it be that at some point in life we get so uncertain about our existence we question it?

Why am I here?
What difference do I make?
What is the point of all of this?


I am not referring to the feeling of not knowing one's purpose.
I am talking about that feeling of emptiness that despair cannot even reach.

It is way more common than you could imagine.

Therapy & I

Therapy is not solely for the troubled mind. It is for the healthy mind.

I had my first proper therapy session this year. What can I say after attending?

Are you actually the real you?

Follow your inner moonlight; don't hide the madness.” 
― Allen Ginsberg


You can't come and kill yourself, if you are mad be mad! (further translation provided below)

Whatever is inside of you, do you see it as your truth or an embarrassment. This is the question that brings you to the understanding of who you truly are. Are we honest about our desires, voices and ways. Or are you concerned about how you will be viewed?

I'm confident to start over

Forever.


 I have been spending forever trying to figure out when exactly is a good time to start over. Not only when is a good time to start over but who will notice that once again, I am picking up pieces.


Are these questions relevant or necessary? The answer is of course, a simple, bold and confident no.


I am confident to start over. This is all you need to feel and act on. The present.

How To Spot Red Flags

I’ve ignored a lot of red flags in my life. A lot of signs that were telling of the situations to come, which if I had listened to, could have saved me a lot of unnecessary emotions. But at that time, I wasn’t equipped with the knowledge I have now. I guess I had different ideas of what I wanted in my life. Especially romantically. And that’s what this blog post is going to address.

Removing toxic people from your life

I see the word toxic be thrown around a lot. I think it has a different definition to everyone in relation with their experiences, but in all honesty, no matter what name you give to a Venus flytrap, it will always trap its prey at an opportune moment.

The Importance of Being Uncomfortable

It’s been a long time coming – the ability to feel content; immeasurably fulfilled and unequivocally happy, without trying to reach those parts within myself artificially. I’ve reached a milestone, and I’m proud to admit it.

How your thoughts affect your dreams

Yes, how you think will affect your pursuits in life. Your pursuit of happiness is linked to how you perceive everything. Absolutely everything, whether it be people, the news, relationships or beauty...

So I want you to ponder on what type of thinker you are...?

Relationships; necessity or option?

A woman's position in a relationship is often ridiculed by society, seeing us as the inferior, submissive 'house wife'. Then there's the other side of society that think there's something wrong with women who aren't 'house wife' material, you know uninterested, independent, bold, someone whose priorities and pursuits do not revolve around men.


It's all a bit too controversial in my opinion. You can't please anyone, but you can definitely be pleased with the decisions you make.

5 Mistakes to Avoid at University

University was a time where a lot of sleepless nights, self-realisation and personal growth occurred. And definitely not in that order. It was a catalyst for experiences that would more or less change my life. Not to say that they define me, but they are and always will be a part of me.

I would like to take a few minutes to explore some of those experiences, and suggest what you could do to ensure you make the most of your university experience (and perhaps not make the mistakes I did!)

1. Find a way to organise your time.

I really can’t stress this enough. Whether you’re old school and prefer a paper journal and a pen like me, or you would rather collate your day in a calendar app, make sure you plan your time. One of my biggest setbacks at university was thinking that as a creative person, a calendar and an organised schedule would get in the way of my projects. It doesn’t. If anything, it makes your projects come to life because you feel like you’ve put in the time and effort to build them.

Fighting Fear

“Every good thing in life is on the other side of fear”, I repeated to myself as I closed the book I was reading, affirming the messages I would take from it to my sleep.

The journey of self that I am currently on involves the combat of fear. Fear is integral to change. So much so, that change is the planet revolving around the Sun of fear. Fear offers change a source of energy, light and warmth. But only as long as the planet keeps spinning. As long as you keep on with your journey.  

As a 21 year old student, dreamer, writer, poet (and many more callings I’ve dared to call my own), fear within myself is something I’ve learnt to conquer. There was a time in my childhood that I was afraid of change. I was afraid to grow into someone new – with new hobbies, new perspectives and a new sense of happiness. I was afraid to let go. I was comfortable living in the version of myself that I had created because it brought me happiness. If I let go of the things that contribute to it, would my happiness still be there?

The answer is yes.

Who you keep in your circle

A question one doesn't often ask themselves is...what are the mediocre things in my life right now?

What lacks effort? 

Why can I only see half an empty cup? 

What is preventing your flowers from growth?

It can sometimes be right in front of you, all around you....

It can simply be the people you choose to be in your life. Your friends.

Have you bought into the Hollywood love lie?

 Growing up, the notion of romantic love that was portrayed through film, poetry, novels – and practically the majority of media sources – was always incredibly idealistic. I was always in awe of what it would feel like one day when it happened to me. There were several myths that I realised were often portrayed about love. And one of them was that love is supposed to make you crazy.

You hear about it all the time in films. “I can’t breathe when I’m not around her”. Or “I just act so crazy with him”, or “he brings out my wild side!”. And it all seems to insinuate that a person is not whole unless the other completes them.

Aligning your heart and your mind

Recently i've had to move slow and take time because something has been off, i've been finding it difficult to give a lot of things my 100%. You know when you're not fully there?

You try and ask yourself what the problem is, where the anomaly lies, and mine has simply been the realisation that too often my heart and mind are contrary, and they need to be aligned. 


It's tricky because we sometimes find ourselves in instances where we must separate our heart from our mind and we have to deal with things swiftly, get on with life and keep moving forwards because nobody is gonna wait for you. We live in a world where 'time is money' and progression is a mutual desire. For example, taking a job that your morals/faith do not at all support but pays the bills, or making decisions based on the general consensus..

It’s not too late to find your passion…

In Bulgarian tradition, after the birth of a baby and its settling into the home, it is custom to play a game that has been passed down for centuries. After the baby can crawl, and they’ve explored their surroundings, they’re ready to experience what is thought of as their future destiny. The parents lay some seemingly mundane household objects on the floor, and let the baby crawl in the common direction of the objects. There’s nothing fancy laid out – there might be a screwdriver, a pen, a magnifying glass, or maybe a ladle. The important thing is that each object has to represent a future career path. Legend has it that whatever object the baby crawls to and grabs is directly telling of what the baby will become.

I picked up the pen.

You're a couple of steps away from feeling amazing today

At the forefront of my mind almost every day is the question that plagues my energy, my experiences and ultimately, my life. I guess plague connotes that it’s a bad set of thoughts. It isn’t. But it’s important you see how deeply entrenched this set of thoughts is in regards to being myself.

And the question is: “Do you feel like yourself right now?”

I say set of thoughts because a domino effect always prevails. After this question comes “Do you feel happy?” And this knocks on the door of the adjacent house – “What is stopping you from feeling amazing today?”

Brain-food: reading into existence

                                           So I grew out of reading misery memoirs, thank God.
Instead I've become interested in spiritual books, and motivationals, because they don't make me low, but perceptive and motivated. So here's a lil break down of my 3 favourite/most recommended, and my insight. Much love xo      

Do not waste your talents

Calling all the wonderful people in this world to pick up what they are good at, practice and use it!

When you were younger what sort of things were you into?

Did you have dance classes, music lessons, enter math competitions, love debating/discussing?

Time doesn't heal you. You do.

Whoever said time heals all, lied. Some feelings can never disappear, we are human, not everything can be put to an end...

I'm a believer of doing. What YOU DO, can heal you.

Look at it this way...